... I'm having a hard time believing it. On one hand, I've seen what their... Magic-that-isn't-magic can do. Bringing all of us here and suppressing those who should have magic of their own.
But to freeze time across many worlds sounds impossible. And even if it is frozen, I don't know if that makes anything... Better.
[He scratches at his chest, and shifts the coat over his chest more - so the scabbed over wound on it is more covered.]
Don't think I'm missing the memories, think I'm missing the time. I'm normally fairly good at keeping track of my mind, you know? Unless I've mixed suude and alcohol again, and that's certainly not the last thing I've got in there.
Another mystery of this place, then, and the way that it chooses to do things.
Well. It's a good thing your friends are here to help you, then, though it must be strange to hear of your own future... And I wonder what happens when we all return home, with new knowledge like that.
Can't say it's not a bit of a headfuck, hearing about things you haven't done yet. Hard to wrap your mind around what makes sense and what you think you'd actually do.
[He pauses, spinning the card he'd been drawing on.]
Suppose there's not much point in dwelling on it now. What about you? Things to get back to?
I'm - not sure, to be honest. A lot has been happening, but I'm still in the dark as to my role in it. I'm not quite as 'in the middle' of something as many people here were.
I'm sorry, that must be very vague. It's complicated.
[He waves a hand, letting the it's complicated sit.]
I'm only chattering. You're allowed all the complexities you like. Suppose I've never cared much about the past and digging it up anyway. Like I said, we're here now, so . . . really only forward to go.
I truly wish that I could live in the moment in that way, but I'm afraid the past can be as good as shackles forced upon you, sometimes. They aren't easily removed.
[Coloring class got so fucking real so quickly? Molly just smiles back, and then goes back to his card, casual.]
You'd be far from the first person I've heard that from. I don't know that it's as difficult as all of that. At any rate, it's quite far away here yes? Could really be anything you want for the moment. Could be fun to try something.
[ ah just like real school. oversharing your trauma in art class while the teacher completely ignores you. ]
I've never been so removed from my home, to be honest. I travel, but always for my work to protect the kingdom. Everything I've ever done has been - for its betterment.
I. I don't know what to do, when it isn't for that cause.
I suppose I'll have to. I do want to look after those from my dorm, after all. [ a pause. ] And everyone else, too. Though I don't know how I'll do it.
[He nods, and taps the pencil he was drawing with and tapping it on his chin. Then he points it at her.]
A good place to start, if you ask me. [He smiles, half-cocked grin.] You know, a lot of places treat me with ... let's call it disrespect. But despite that, to me, it's important to me to leave every town just a little better than I've found it. An extra gold piece on the bartop. A good laugh with a stranger. Killing a monster that's been hurting people. Just to prove I can.
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But to freeze time across many worlds sounds impossible. And even if it is frozen, I don't know if that makes anything... Better.
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[Vouchers!]
It does sound impossible, doesn't it? [He clicks his tongue.] Something odd going on with time, at any rate. Can't deny that.
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The things you're missing, you mean? Is it more that than a loss of memories themselves?
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[He scratches at his chest, and shifts the coat over his chest more - so the scabbed over wound on it is more covered.]
Don't think I'm missing the memories, think I'm missing the time. I'm normally fairly good at keeping track of my mind, you know? Unless I've mixed suude and alcohol again, and that's certainly not the last thing I've got in there.
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Well. It's a good thing your friends are here to help you, then, though it must be strange to hear of your own future... And I wonder what happens when we all return home, with new knowledge like that.
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[He pauses, spinning the card he'd been drawing on.]
Suppose there's not much point in dwelling on it now. What about you? Things to get back to?
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[ she stops coloring. ]
I'm - not sure, to be honest. A lot has been happening, but I'm still in the dark as to my role in it. I'm not quite as 'in the middle' of something as many people here were.
I'm sorry, that must be very vague. It's complicated.
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I'm only chattering. You're allowed all the complexities you like. Suppose I've never cared much about the past and digging it up anyway. Like I said, we're here now, so . . . really only forward to go.
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A nice way of looking at it.
I truly wish that I could live in the moment in that way, but I'm afraid the past can be as good as shackles forced upon you, sometimes. They aren't easily removed.
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You'd be far from the first person I've heard that from. I don't know that it's as difficult as all of that. At any rate, it's quite far away here yes? Could really be anything you want for the moment. Could be fun to try something.
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I've never been so removed from my home, to be honest. I travel, but always for my work to protect the kingdom. Everything I've ever done has been - for its betterment.
I. I don't know what to do, when it isn't for that cause.
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Everything for your country then? [He tilts his head a bit.] Never been one for national loyalties myself, but suppose it's some people's bag.
Can just focus on some betterment for yourself. Or a few strangers. Might be interesting.
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I suppose I'll have to. I do want to look after those from my dorm, after all. [ a pause. ] And everyone else, too. Though I don't know how I'll do it.
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A good place to start, if you ask me. [He smiles, half-cocked grin.] You know, a lot of places treat me with ... let's call it disrespect. But despite that, to me, it's important to me to leave every town just a little better than I've found it. An extra gold piece on the bartop. A good laugh with a stranger. Killing a monster that's been hurting people. Just to prove I can.
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I... [ she looks back down to focus on her coloring for the distraction. ] It can be hard. To leave things better.
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[Winking at her.]
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... Maybe. Though I'd be at a loss for what to do outside of it, as well.
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[He's teasing, mostly.]
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I don't think that would fix anything. I don't know if any kind of running away will fix anything.