[ He goes to take his hand at this point, squeezing it a little. ]
If you're asking me, the heartless person wouldn't question it. Don't think there's such a thing as too late, until you're actually beyond that gate. Body rotting in a grave somewhere.
I admit to it, but you have not seen me use any of my higher level spells.
. . . I went to school because I found it fascinating, and incredible, and I loved it. And then I was taught to see it as a weapon, to see myself as a weapon. When I remember I still have love for it, I want to share that with everyone.
Yeah, I know. Going to have to do a performance when we get home.
[He huffs an amused noise, but there's a little tinge of That's the Thing I'm Sensitive About to it. He's missed a lot. But it's not really important at the moment.]
So this whole charade probably isn't helping any of that, is it?
I have a lot to show you. You will like the tower, I think. [He's just excited to show him the things he missed.]
. . . Uhm, well. I don't have so much magic here. So it is less the thing where I feel like a powerful weapon, and more - how it was when we first met. I don't like going back to feeling weak.
[Also that school is bad and not good. At least this school. It is probably not even accredited.]
Not the first time I've heard this from-- fuck, most everyone I talk to here at all. But that's what this place is trying to do, isn't it? Make everyone feel as if there's nothing to do but go along with it.
S'bullshit though. [He just presses a little bit closer.] Just about the strongest-willed person I know. [A half-smile.] Rita might have you beat by a nose.
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If you're asking me, the heartless person wouldn't question it. Don't think there's such a thing as too late, until you're actually beyond that gate. Body rotting in a grave somewhere.
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[He squeezes his hand back, and leans against him.]
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So, doesn't strike you as a little bullshit if you can say that to me and not think the same about yourself?
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[There's a distinction there that's important.]
I want to think . . . there's something to look forward to. I do.
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Then that's alright. But my thing is still right too.
[Sighing out.]
What's the thing you're looking forward to the most, then?
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[Not super romantic. He gives him a small smile.]
I want to see everyone when they see you again. And I want to show you - I've been working on your room in the tower.
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Didn't ask for you to flatter me, I asked what you were looking forward to. So both is good. Long as the person rotting in prison isn't me.
[He knows it's not, so. Just a joke.]
Oh yes, the much-vaulted tower. This thing has been very talked up to me. Pretty curious about what goes on in there.
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You know that I like that you're a bit of a show-off, right? That I'm into that bit?
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I admit to it, but you have not seen me use any of my higher level spells.
. . . I went to school because I found it fascinating, and incredible, and I loved it. And then I was taught to see it as a weapon, to see myself as a weapon. When I remember I still have love for it, I want to share that with everyone.
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[He huffs an amused noise, but there's a little tinge of That's the Thing I'm Sensitive About to it. He's missed a lot. But it's not really important at the moment.]
So this whole charade probably isn't helping any of that, is it?
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. . . Uhm, well. I don't have so much magic here. So it is less the thing where I feel like a powerful weapon, and more - how it was when we first met. I don't like going back to feeling weak.
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Not the first time I've heard this from-- fuck, most everyone I talk to here at all. But that's what this place is trying to do, isn't it? Make everyone feel as if there's nothing to do but go along with it.
S'bullshit though. [He just presses a little bit closer.] Just about the strongest-willed person I know. [A half-smile.] Rita might have you beat by a nose.
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[I know all too well it is possible to break me. But he will cup his jaw to kiss him for saying so.]