[Molly is fairly good at that; often has a good sense for when he needs to be talked down from a ledge and when he needs to be distracted. He'd like to have the same sense. Molly - he doesn't want him to blame himself for losing himself around Caleb, when that's already his fear. He wants him to know it is okay to need to be chased. So he will try a bit of honesty.]
I don't care for it, but it didn't bother me so much. Wouldn't, if it was only you, or only Beauregard. It wears off. I can take care of you for a little while like that.
But. . . you had both already decided to do it. [He trails off; it's a little easier just to think these things, so he thinks - You didn't seem to have considered me in your plans, and I felt a little unimportant. And ridiculous, for being more troubled by it than you had thought I should be. And hurt, because I kept trying to tell both of you I did not want you to go through with it, but I did not know how to ask. I just wanted you to know.]
[His thoughts go schatz ... ? but the tone of voice and fairly obvious placement make it clear it’s something probably very sweet, so he doesn’t ask outloud. He’s listening though mostly to what he’s saying, what he’s thinking. This week is so strange. It’s a strange double line of communication, but it’s almost easier. To not have to pick out the words and instead just have to live with whatever comes out first. It’s more honest, scarier, even, but he’s willing to give the honesty thing a shot for this. I should have known, is the thing. I heard it. I heard you. I just didn’t want to. ]
You’re— You’re more than just important, you know. Only reason I’ve made it this far is the two of you. The only reason I’m doing anything is I want to go home with you. I like everyone here just fine, I don’t want to see anyone hurt or lost or left behind, but— [He sort of clings a little tighter to his arm at this point.] You’re different. You’re everything. The both of you.
[That is very romantic, Molly, even if he keeps adding Beau to it. He knows what he means, though. He understands well how important the Mighty Nein are, that feeling of family. It makes it a little easier to accept the intensity of those feelings. It makes him feel a little ridiculous for his doubts; not in such a nasty self-hating way, but just. . . he knows why Molly did this. Because he wanted to help, he wanted to be useful. So he wraps his arms around his waist and presses his face against the side of his hair.]
[He’d added Beau to it for the specific reason that he does mean it about Beau and the rest of the Nein as well. But yeah, it’s romantic too. It’s most definitely too intense for a two week old relationship, but, fuck it. Sometimes you might die tomorrow.
He twists to wrap himself around Caleb back as best as he can, winding his arms around him back and tail going to curl around one of his ankles - more relief at what seems to be forgiveness.
... It probably doesn’t help the intensity situation when his thoughts just add a very quiet i like you very much to it all.]
[The way he keeps repeating that thought really does ruin him just a little. There's something about replaying his spur of the moment, hardly poetic words back to him, like they meant something. He wants to give him more, reassure him that these feelings are okay, what he wants, not too intense for him. But even in his thoughts, he's not sure how.]
. . . We shouldn't stay too long. Beauregard will want us together for curfew.
[That's part of why he likes them so much though. He just said them so easily. No one's ever said something like that to him so easily. He nods a little at that, because yeah. He's right. But he's not pulling away quite yet.]
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[Molly is fairly good at that; often has a good sense for when he needs to be talked down from a ledge and when he needs to be distracted. He'd like to have the same sense. Molly - he doesn't want him to blame himself for losing himself around Caleb, when that's already his fear. He wants him to know it is okay to need to be chased. So he will try a bit of honesty.]
I don't care for it, but it didn't bother me so much. Wouldn't, if it was only you, or only Beauregard. It wears off. I can take care of you for a little while like that.
But. . . you had both already decided to do it. [He trails off; it's a little easier just to think these things, so he thinks - You didn't seem to have considered me in your plans, and I felt a little unimportant. And ridiculous, for being more troubled by it than you had thought I should be. And hurt, because I kept trying to tell both of you I did not want you to go through with it, but I did not know how to ask. I just wanted you to know.]
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You’re— You’re more than just important, you know. Only reason I’ve made it this far is the two of you. The only reason I’m doing anything is I want to go home with you. I like everyone here just fine, I don’t want to see anyone hurt or lost or left behind, but— [He sort of clings a little tighter to his arm at this point.] You’re different. You’re everything. The both of you.
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He twists to wrap himself around Caleb back as best as he can, winding his arms around him back and tail going to curl around one of his ankles - more relief at what seems to be forgiveness.
... It probably doesn’t help the intensity situation when his thoughts just add a very quiet i like you very much to it all.]
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. . . We shouldn't stay too long. Beauregard will want us together for curfew.
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Right. Should head back.
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Alright, bribe accepted. Come on.