[He sighs out, a little comforted despite himself by the closeness.]
. . . I don't think you are a liar. Not about things that matter. If I've acted like I don't believe something, it's. . . that is me. It isn't to do with you.
[ He'll just pet through his hair, trying to make it a little better that way, even if he can't seem to say quite the right thing. His thoughts don't seem to be able to put it together perfectly either.]
Not that-- You haven't done anything either. Meant more that-- [I think you're making me a little insane? Don't say that. I like more than very much. Don't say that. I've never done this before. Don't say that.] I don't know what I mean.
[Oh. He lets that wash over him, pressing his eyes against his shoulder like he's trying to shut everything else out. He doesn't want to push this away. Not his thoughts, that he didn't want to say anyway. It's hard to avoid, just a little, I am not worth all of this.
And it doesn't exactly make him feel worth it, that they both decided to forget him at once. He doesn't feel like he is allowed to be so selfish, to ask them not to, to send someone else. He doesn't really know how to ask for things for himself. He assumes it will be fine, he's overreacting, he will be able to handle this. He is and isn't wrong.]
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. . . I don't think you are a liar. Not about things that matter. If I've acted like I don't believe something, it's. . . that is me. It isn't to do with you.
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Not that-- You haven't done anything either. Meant more that-- [I think you're making me a little insane? Don't say that. I like more than very much. Don't say that. I've never done this before. Don't say that.] I don't know what I mean.
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And it doesn't exactly make him feel worth it, that they both decided to forget him at once. He doesn't feel like he is allowed to be so selfish, to ask them not to, to send someone else. He doesn't really know how to ask for things for himself. He assumes it will be fine, he's overreacting, he will be able to handle this. He is and isn't wrong.]
It's alright.