Me too! So as long as you got the right person it was fine, because you knew they chose to do it and they were the ones that should face the consequences for it! This is just... so much less fair...
Yeah, I suppose. I mean, is any of it really fair? Not as if someone doing it without the shadows isn't also having their arm twisted. Can you judge someone for having a knife pushed into their hand?
[ somehow it seems that things just suck more with every passing week, and after this execution, molly will once again find sebastian just sitting down sadly somewhere. ]
Oh, well. Good for you? Being employed and all ...
[ the child is still crying. ]
You really did do your best. You don't have to sit here and beat yourself up about that. Sometimes-- Shite just goes sideways whether you've done all you can or not.
I just felt like if I'd been better at my job it wouldn't have turned out like that. Like... defending people isn't what I do, but I should've at least been able to accuse someone I thought was more suspicious, and show evidence why.
...Though I guess now I know I was wrong about the person I thought it really was back then too.
... I'm sure you've heard it, but you really shouldn't blame yourself for all of that. You can't control all of us, can't know everything in the moment when it's all happening. Mistakes happen, but you didn't make one. You were defending him. And I doubt Bucky would want you to be doing that to yourself either.
[ okay! we've got a hot spring out at the village this week, and people always talk about how great they are for stress relief, and sebastian has a ton of stress that could use some relieving right now, so! he is here, tentatively sticking a toe into the water to make sure he's not going to get scalded or something. ]
[ molly, who is not a rude ass, does not push him directly into the water. but because he's slightly a rude ass, he does consider it strongly for about 30 seconds. ]
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w1, SATURDAY
Doing alright?
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Hey. Yeah... I guess. That one just... felt pretty bad.
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About covers it. You know-- Everyone the last time around, for me, just did it on their own. None of this shadow business.
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w2, sunday
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Coming over to sit near him? ]
... I think people just panicked.
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It's not fair that that made this happen to him though...!
[ ...sighs. ]
I mean... I know you were trying to figure everything out... so thanks...
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Should have pushed harder to say I didn't think he was the one.
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[ he swallows around a lump in his throat. ]
...Or, I should've pushed that other guy harder. As a prosecutor... that's what I should have done...
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I just started officially about a month ago. Or... two months ago, I guess...?
[ he doesn't know how time works anymore. ]
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[ the child is still crying. ]
You really did do your best. You don't have to sit here and beat yourself up about that. Sometimes-- Shite just goes sideways whether you've done all you can or not.
week 4, saturday
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Sorry. For what I said about Bucky.
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[ he'll come sit down at the edge of the pool too. ]
I've been really mad this whole time... about what happened to him. Mostly at myself.
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[ He seems genuinely confused about that, tapping off the end of his cigarette. ]
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...Though I guess now I know I was wrong about the person I thought it really was back then too.
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[ sighing out. ]
I thought it was Rin for a while, myself.
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You thought that back then, you mean? Or today?
week 6, monday
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It's not poisoned, promise.
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[ sorry he's already yeeting himself in there. Fire resistance and all. Overconfidence! ]
Come on, it's relaxing. Might make you worry less if you actually get in it.
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[ thanks for SPLASHING HIM ]
Ugh! I'm going to, just...
[ huffs and steps in slowly!! ]
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You can do it!
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[ this should sound indignant, but actually he kind of likes the encouragement.
anyway, he gets in and sits down on a ledge... immediately flushing because it is Hot. ]
There, see?!