[ she did! the bruising on her limbs is gone, and so is the hole in her neck, although there's still a bit of lingering scar tissue there. at the suggestion that she should go back into the pod, she sticks her tongue out at him. ]
You're one to talk. [ man sewed up his own wounds!! ]
[ quieter: ] Maybe it's okay to not be a singer anymore.
[ yeah, he gets that. there's something melancholy about it, though. the idea that something you love can be twisted so painfully that it's a relief to free yourself of it. ]
Don't think anyone should be allowed to use you. Wish they couldn't do it here, either.
[ she closes her eyes, considers where to start. a lot happened in there. but what she's been thinking of the most, throughout this conversation, is: ]
We couldn't remember anything. But the place where we were, it - it made us all relive a memory, I think. I had to do a round of my old competition.
[ this is where she falters. a small, shaky breath before continuing. ]
I did it four times. I couldn't make it turn out any different.
[ she breathes in, then out, letting mollymauk's hand ground her. she takes a couple seconds like this, and then, once she's ready, looks back up at him. there's resolve in her eyes, this time. it looks a little like anger. ]
Last week, I said that breaking that barrier was a rhetorical question. It's not anymore. I want to do it. I'm - I'm not watching another execution.
[ keeping the hand on her back then, nodding slightly. ]
If you want to try, we'll try.
[ its all a little complicated, with Love and not wanting to put her in harm's way either, but he agrees with the sentiment. no more death for views. ]
I'll poke around, see what I can find that might be helpful.
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You're one to talk. [ man sewed up his own wounds!! ]
[ quieter: ] Maybe it's okay to not be a singer anymore.
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'Course. If that's what you want, never have to sing another note.
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It was always something of mine they tried to use, you know? And now no one can.
[ there's something freeing about it. ]
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Don't think anyone should be allowed to use you. Wish they couldn't do it here, either.
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But you're right. It shouldn't be allowed.
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We couldn't remember anything. But the place where we were, it - it made us all relive a memory, I think. I had to do a round of my old competition.
[ this is where she falters. a small, shaky breath before continuing. ]
I did it four times. I couldn't make it turn out any different.
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They're bastards. They know how to get under your skin. Can see in your head, use it against you.
I'm sorry.
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Last week, I said that breaking that barrier was a rhetorical question. It's not anymore. I want to do it. I'm - I'm not watching another execution.
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If you want to try, we'll try.
[ its all a little complicated, with Love and not wanting to put her in harm's way either, but he agrees with the sentiment. no more death for views. ]
I'll poke around, see what I can find that might be helpful.