[ squatting down so he's more her height, where she's sitting, and putting a hand on top of her head - gently. he remembers she flinched last time. ]
If you're asking me, nothing embarrassing about caring about these things. It's good, to still care. [ ... ] The dangerous part is when you stop caring.
[ She's seen segyein hold their pet-humans like this. The ones who took pet a little more literally. Shine didn't quite have the anatomy for it; but when she made the attempt, Mizi knew what to do. Smile and laugh.
She's fairly certain that would be the wrong thing to do here. That's not what Mollymauk's doing. She doesn't flinch this time. ]
Dangerous either way, I think. [ A grim little smile. ] Maybe that's why we're all on teams. Keeps us accountable.
[ he doesn't keep his hand there long - but he is free with the gentle touches, maybe because he does have a soft and easy time with people who were good at that kind of thing, at least for the few years of memories he has. ]
Dangerous either way, but I'd rather keep my soul and suffer a little more hurt for it. You know? I've seen what happens when you give it up, and it's not worth the trade. [ nodding lightly. ] I think the teams are good. But we've got to look out for each other. Important at times like this.
[ does she want an insane lore drop, because this is how she gets insane lore drops. why not. he's feeling a bit crazy tonight. ]
Well, entirely anecdotally, you end up with the last remaining extremely annoying part of your conscience signing up for a murderous game show to try and save you from yourself.
[ ... ]
I don't think you can ever kill the part of you that cares. It just turns into something that wants to make the world hurt like you hurt.
[ Let's get wild!! Mizi learned about magic like three days ago, so she's not sure if she's fully tracking all of it. But she thinks she understands the important parts.
She looks out at the waves for a little bit. Sometimes, her eyes seem to focus, like she's looking at something in particular. But there's nothing out there. ]
Oh. Then maybe I did give my soul up. [ Not the saving you from yourself part; that's not Mizi's wish at all. But: ] I think if I ever went back to my old competition, I'd hurt every last segyein in the audience.
[ the thing is that two of them is not incorrect. but he is being annoyingly vague so not quite getting what he's driving at is more than reasonable. ]
I don't think there's ever really a point of no return. It gets harder, the further down the road you go, to turn around. But it's never impossible. [ maybe that's idealistic and naive, but he does seem stubborn in his belief. ] They probably deserve it. But you're here and not there, right now.
[ It's a nice thought. But Mizi wonders to herself: if that's really true, then why does Mollymauk need to be here to save himself?
But that's none of her business. ]
Different audience. Same show. [ She's here, and not there. Mizi looks up at him, and there's a steely sort of conviction in her gaze. ] I don't know if I understand your wish. But I want you to have it.
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When she hears someone coming, she turns around, but her expression stays fairly blank. ]
You think that was the show they were looking for?
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Think that's exactly what they were looking for.
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Mm. Then maybe it's for the best I didn't keep it together. Kind of embarrassing, though.
[ Her voice stays pretty flat. ]
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If you're asking me, nothing embarrassing about caring about these things. It's good, to still care. [ ... ] The dangerous part is when you stop caring.
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She's fairly certain that would be the wrong thing to do here. That's not what Mollymauk's doing. She doesn't flinch this time. ]
Dangerous either way, I think. [ A grim little smile. ] Maybe that's why we're all on teams. Keeps us accountable.
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Dangerous either way, but I'd rather keep my soul and suffer a little more hurt for it. You know? I've seen what happens when you give it up, and it's not worth the trade. [ nodding lightly. ] I think the teams are good. But we've got to look out for each other. Important at times like this.
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What does it look like, when you give your soul up?
[ She does a good job keeping the longing out of her voice, but she's not entirely successful. ]
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Well, entirely anecdotally, you end up with the last remaining extremely annoying part of your conscience signing up for a murderous game show to try and save you from yourself.
[ ... ]
I don't think you can ever kill the part of you that cares. It just turns into something that wants to make the world hurt like you hurt.
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She looks out at the waves for a little bit. Sometimes, her eyes seem to focus, like she's looking at something in particular. But there's nothing out there. ]
Oh. Then maybe I did give my soul up. [ Not the saving you from yourself part; that's not Mizi's wish at all. But: ] I think if I ever went back to my old competition, I'd hurt every last segyein in the audience.
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I don't think there's ever really a point of no return. It gets harder, the further down the road you go, to turn around. But it's never impossible. [ maybe that's idealistic and naive, but he does seem stubborn in his belief. ] They probably deserve it. But you're here and not there, right now.
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But that's none of her business. ]
Different audience. Same show. [ She's here, and not there. Mizi looks up at him, and there's a steely sort of conviction in her gaze. ] I don't know if I understand your wish. But I want you to have it.
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I know it's against the ethos of this whole team against team nonsense, but I want you to have yours too.
[ even if he doesn't know it. ]
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Who knows. Maybe we’ll tie.