[He isn't normally opposed to be looked at, he loves being looked at, but he can tell there's something searching in the gaze and he suddenly looks a bit shy, which is a weird expression on him of all people. fidgeting with the piercing in his septum and moving to lay back down.]
... Harrow asked me a funny question the other day.
I - oh, shut up, I wasn't exactly thinking about my livelihood! [ AAAA HE'S HAVING A CRISIS sometimes you accidentally erase your own identity because you just fucking love your country so much
he just kind of sputters a bit, like a machine out of power. ] I've never even - my entire life has been the military. What am I supposed to do, run off and open a makeup shop in a village somewhere? Settle down and buy some cows? What sort of problems do normal people have?
I always thought I'd be dead before I made it to retirement. Not that I'd be 23...
[He just curls closer, kissing him on the cheek. there there, whiny baby.]
You're asking me what normal people do? I'm a carnie who picked up a pair of swords and decided to be a ragtag adventurer. What in the hells do I know about normal people problems?
[huffing softly.]
Suppose that's good though? You've got time to figure it out. What you want to do. Could be a makeup shop and a few cows? Though I don't see that really being your style. Is that your style?
jesus. he's thinking about it now, though, trying to push past the "error 404 answer not found" because his literal entire life is constructed around the peace of great liang. that's why he's here. it's why if he's successful, he'll. be out of a job apparently. ]
In a makeup shop, I suppose I could look at beautiful people all day, that wouldn't be so bad. [ ... ] But... I think I'd be bored to tears.
[ he frowns, like he's realizing. ] I don't even have any hobbies, really. Short of trying to pick up music every now and then. I don't really... I don't know what I'd do.[ no one should encourage this hobby because he's tone deaf.
gu yun shifts, tilting his head to look at molly. a little... lost, almost? not badly so, just. processing. ] Maybe I'll become a ragtag adventurer myself.
[He sounds so certain so quickly. Just kicking one leg over the other, tail lightly smacking the bed.]
I was promised a month off in Nicodranas. Place by the ocean, apparently. And to get to meet Jester's very attractive mother - The Ruby of the Sea. I've been looking forward to it.
[ what's it like to have it so together??? can't relate.... ]
Sounds lovely. [ he closes his eyes, for a moment, trying to imagine a life relaxed, out by the coast. he doesn't know what any of those places are, or what jester looks like, short of the faint memory of when they shared them, all those weeks ago.
... it sounds nice, either way. ] And well deserved.
[Does he have it together? Does he? His whole plan is: idk maybe hit on jester's mom. not a great start! it's probably fine.]
Don't know so much about deserved. Either way, I suppose it's a start. Not sure what I'll do after that. [...] Don't know that I'll exactly be able to stick with the Nein or anything. If it's been as long as Beau says, I'll be a bit of a drag on the tailwind.
[ that is a lot better than gu yun's plan of: accidentally make my own job obsolete and then idk
anyway. he. listens, carefully, trying not to miss anything, and then.]
Mmn. I get it. I'm sure my second in command will be chasing after that doctor he's gotten a crush on, and Chang Geng would be returning to the palace to be with his elder brother, and I'll... move back to the manor, I suppose. I'll have orders to get in affair, but...
[ ...
there's a pause. gu yun glances away. ]
... Seems neither of us have much of a plan, after the initial month or so's all worn off.
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[He isn't normally opposed to be looked at, he loves being looked at, but he can tell there's something searching in the gaze and he suddenly looks a bit shy, which is a weird expression on him of all people. fidgeting with the piercing in his septum and moving to lay back down.]
... Harrow asked me a funny question the other day.
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well, no time to focus on it. settling back in. ] What was that?
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After this is all said and done, what's your plan? What's the thing you're going to do when you get home?
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he blinks, for a moment, and then looks away from molly's face, his brow furrowing, thinking. serious thought. ]
...Well... if my desire's granted....
[ ............................ ] I.
...Retire? I guess I'll have to retire?
[ ??????????????? ]
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You're going to wish yourself out of a job! My gods! Smart decision, Marquis!
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I - oh, shut up, I wasn't exactly thinking about my livelihood! [ AAAA HE'S HAVING A CRISIS sometimes you accidentally erase your own identity because you just fucking love your country so much
he just kind of sputters a bit, like a machine out of power. ] I've never even - my entire life has been the military. What am I supposed to do, run off and open a makeup shop in a village somewhere? Settle down and buy some cows? What sort of problems do normal people have?
I always thought I'd be dead before I made it to retirement. Not that I'd be 23...
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You're asking me what normal people do? I'm a carnie who picked up a pair of swords and decided to be a ragtag adventurer. What in the hells do I know about normal people problems?
[huffing softly.]
Suppose that's good though? You've got time to figure it out. What you want to do. Could be a makeup shop and a few cows? Though I don't see that really being your style. Is that your style?
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jesus. he's thinking about it now, though, trying to push past the "error 404 answer not found" because his literal entire life is constructed around the peace of great liang. that's why he's here. it's why if he's successful, he'll. be out of a job apparently. ]
In a makeup shop, I suppose I could look at beautiful people all day, that wouldn't be so bad. [ ... ] But... I think I'd be bored to tears.
[ he frowns, like he's realizing. ] I don't even have any hobbies, really. Short of trying to pick up music every now and then. I don't really... I don't know what I'd do.[ no one should encourage this hobby because he's tone deaf.
gu yun shifts, tilting his head to look at molly. a little... lost, almost? not badly so, just. processing. ] Maybe I'll become a ragtag adventurer myself.
[ that at least sounds more exciting than cows. ]
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[haha]
You could run off and join the circus!
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[ playfully sticking his tongue out! ]
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[sticking his forked tongue out back at him]
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I'd be in good company, I suppose.
What about you, Molly? Did you have an existential crisis over the same question?
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[He sounds so certain so quickly. Just kicking one leg over the other, tail lightly smacking the bed.]
I was promised a month off in Nicodranas. Place by the ocean, apparently. And to get to meet Jester's very attractive mother - The Ruby of the Sea. I've been looking forward to it.
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Sounds lovely. [ he closes his eyes, for a moment, trying to imagine a life relaxed, out by the coast. he doesn't know what any of those places are, or what jester looks like, short of the faint memory of when they shared them, all those weeks ago.
... it sounds nice, either way. ] And well deserved.
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[Does he have it together? Does he? His whole plan is: idk maybe hit on jester's mom. not a great start! it's probably fine.]
Don't know so much about deserved. Either way, I suppose it's a start. Not sure what I'll do after that. [...] Don't know that I'll exactly be able to stick with the Nein or anything. If it's been as long as Beau says, I'll be a bit of a drag on the tailwind.
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anyway. he. listens, carefully, trying not to miss anything, and then.]
Mmn. I get it. I'm sure my second in command will be chasing after that doctor he's gotten a crush on, and Chang Geng would be returning to the palace to be with his elder brother, and I'll... move back to the manor, I suppose. I'll have orders to get in affair, but...
[ ...
there's a pause. gu yun glances away. ]
... Seems neither of us have much of a plan, after the initial month or so's all worn off.