[ it can either eat you alive, or you can use it for something.
gu yun takes a deep breath. inhale, exhale.
(either you will learn to stand up, or else find a place to hang yourself.) ]
...From what that thing said today, he was given orders. I don't know where those orders came from, or what the scope of them was yet - but it means that there was more to it than just an iron puppet spouting its mouth off. I've been wondering since last week, if perhaps there was a much grander conspiracy to the things that have gone on here, and now, with a pattern established, I have an answer.
There's something at play here much larger than what happens from week to week. It means that it's not just over, because that thing was crushed into a cube. [ it means there will likely be more weekends like this. it means someone else might be running off to exterminate others on orders with hk-47 gone. it means there's no guarantee of safety.
until the larger enemy is removed. until the very end. ] It seems there will be many chances yet to fight like hell, because we have only just begun to unravel the circumstances of this place. That anger can be a terrifying, short burst of flame - [ and shouldn't be, especially not in the short term - ] or it can be fuel towards the larger problem at hand.
You've said it best, I think - it can eat you alive, or you can use it for something. [ finally, gu yun reaches out - his hands come up to frame molly's face, instead, holding him there. he looks like an absolute wreck, and his brow furrows briefly, but, gu yun keeps his focus on the conversation instead, his dark eyes serious, solemn, expression closer to determination than worry or sorrow.
(sometimes, gu yun looks at mollymauk and sees those red eyes, and remembers - remembers chang geng's terrified expression, his pupils doubled, the colors bright, bright red. right now, it's clearer than ever. "yifu, in this world, is there an existing type of poison, that can turn someone insane?") ]
... I'd like to show whoever thinks our lives are entertainment who they're really dealing with, and - I won't be leaving you behind in the process, either. [ because he can learn a little from beau, too. ] If you've owed her that, then, we still have a long way to go.
something about seeing gu yun like this again, upright, holding his face in his hands like mollymauk is a child, makes him feel a bit better. calms some of the terrible, terrifying empty feeling that's haunting the back of his brain. He just matches his gaze, and
after a long moment, reaches up to a put a hand over one that's against his cheek.]
Right, then. No one is left behind.
[He pauses, though, looking down again briefly.]
Wrath-- Wrath believes the order came from her. Unintentionally.
[There's a bit in his voice where it seems he can't quite decide how he feels about that. What emotion that brings up. Wrath hadn't meant it, had little choice, but something about still feels.
Well. A thread in a tapestry of loss. He supposes he's added his own too.]
[ well. that makes a conversation he had earlier today make even more sense, now.
gu yun's expression changes, again, mouth pulling grim at the corner. he leaves his hand at molly's cheek, cupping it as he's processing the idea. and combined with the trial from the day before...
... ]
It would've taken any sort of chance to do so. It's not their fault. [ as was clearly proven, today.
gu yun closes his eyes. briefly. there's no stopping grief or guilt, though. ] What an accursed mess.
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gu yun takes a deep breath. inhale, exhale.
(either you will learn to stand up, or else find a place to hang yourself.) ]
...From what that thing said today, he was given orders. I don't know where those orders came from, or what the scope of them was yet - but it means that there was more to it than just an iron puppet spouting its mouth off. I've been wondering since last week, if perhaps there was a much grander conspiracy to the things that have gone on here, and now, with a pattern established, I have an answer.
There's something at play here much larger than what happens from week to week. It means that it's not just over, because that thing was crushed into a cube. [ it means there will likely be more weekends like this. it means someone else might be running off to exterminate others on orders with hk-47 gone. it means there's no guarantee of safety.
until the larger enemy is removed. until the very end. ] It seems there will be many chances yet to fight like hell, because we have only just begun to unravel the circumstances of this place. That anger can be a terrifying, short burst of flame - [ and shouldn't be, especially not in the short term - ] or it can be fuel towards the larger problem at hand.
You've said it best, I think - it can eat you alive, or you can use it for something. [ finally, gu yun reaches out - his hands come up to frame molly's face, instead, holding him there. he looks like an absolute wreck, and his brow furrows briefly, but, gu yun keeps his focus on the conversation instead, his dark eyes serious, solemn, expression closer to determination than worry or sorrow.
(sometimes, gu yun looks at mollymauk and sees those red eyes, and remembers - remembers chang geng's terrified expression, his pupils doubled, the colors bright, bright red. right now, it's clearer than ever. "yifu, in this world, is there an existing type of poison, that can turn someone insane?") ]
... I'd like to show whoever thinks our lives are entertainment who they're really dealing with, and - I won't be leaving you behind in the process, either. [ because he can learn a little from beau, too. ] If you've owed her that, then, we still have a long way to go.
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something about seeing gu yun like this again, upright, holding his face in his hands like mollymauk is a child, makes him feel a bit better. calms some of the terrible, terrifying empty feeling that's haunting the back of his brain. He just matches his gaze, and
after a long moment, reaches up to a put a hand over one that's against his cheek.]
Right, then. No one is left behind.
[He pauses, though, looking down again briefly.]
Wrath-- Wrath believes the order came from her. Unintentionally.
[There's a bit in his voice where it seems he can't quite decide how he feels about that. What emotion that brings up. Wrath hadn't meant it, had little choice, but something about still feels.
Well. A thread in a tapestry of loss. He supposes he's added his own too.]
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gu yun's expression changes, again, mouth pulling grim at the corner. he leaves his hand at molly's cheek, cupping it as he's processing the idea. and combined with the trial from the day before...
... ]
It would've taken any sort of chance to do so. It's not their fault. [ as was clearly proven, today.
gu yun closes his eyes. briefly. there's no stopping grief or guilt, though. ] What an accursed mess.