anyhoo it's like a good. twenty minutes i'm so sorry before there's a knock on the door! here's gu yun, and he's got a big, huge container full of strawberries. like, so many. there are a bunch of lychees too?
also a whole container of bao buns. it's fine. the timing of this was hysterical. he's got his liuli glass perched on his nose. ]
so you know sometimes when there's emotion share week and you aren't make eye contact with someone until they open the door and there's just a WAVE of grief and homesick and guilt that hits you probably like a truck
but also like a lot of really powerful affection and like. something else. the second he sees him haha bad
i didn't have a good metaphor that's just what's happening. it's probably not super fun if you're really high while it's washing over you either. molly still lets him in, immediately going to just grab strawberries]
considering his mental functions are. somewhere! at the moment, he ends up blinking sort of slowly as it all hits at once, and there's a belated second where he has like no emotional reaction at all because his system is still processing.
...however, what blooms out in return is a matching amount of affection and warmth, something more utterly genuine than gu yun ever puts a face on for. there's concern for all of that grief and sorrow, too, and a thick, anxious chord that lies just underneath, obviously so, but it dwarfs in comparison. in a normal situation, he'd likely be running a hundred li an hour to avoid it, or cracking jokes over it, but right now, none of that seems to matter because he's high as a kite from being a good boy and investigating.
he seems to just sort of. sort through his own emotions for a second? and when he takes the box of strawberries he shakes back to reality a bit. ] Mmf. I think so? I don't think so.
This...is terrible. [ is what gu yun ends up declaring, though who knows what part of it is. he shuffles after molly, not even pausing to take his shoes off (this is the clearest sign that he is not his normal self). the anxiety stays even then. ] Bed. I just want to pet your hair.
[Yeah! It is terrible. Anyway he feels a little more guilty now for causing any sort of anxiety, and does his best to just. turn the tap off on all the fucking grief for half a second. the strawberries are helping. he hasn't tried the lychee but he looks! very interested.
molly himself isn't like. fully dressed or anything - he's managed to pull his leggings and a shirt on maybe but for once he is not in shoes. can't wallow properly with shoes on. also like, he just hasn't really gotten out of bed.]
Frumpkin's going to be jealous.
[Taking his strawberries back to the room with them, just flopping back into it.]
. . . Sorry. I know it's a lot. It just-- feels all fucking raw again. How could I be that fucking stupid?
[ poor molly it's not your fault gu yuns never known a real anxiety in his life, this high is just mean according to the mods
anyhow. some of it fades as he makes his way over to the bed, flopping down without any ceremony. the lychees go with him - a couple fall out and one bops him on the nose, but he just sort of wiggles his nose at the situation and snorts like its a little funny, then rolls onto his side.
he really has to force himself to focus and pay attention, which molly will likely get the sense of - his emotions flash a little bit of stubbornness, like he is trying to physically force himself to snap out of this? what a control freak.
anyway it doesn't work for more than ten seconds so he just listens and processes, then scoots over on the bed and drops his cheek against his shoulder. the material of his shirt's really soft and molly smells good... ahhh... there's like another ten seconds of silence.
wait. ]
...Mm... You don't have to apologize. The same thing happened to Primrose... She forgot something that she wouldn't've ever forgotten, in a thousand years.
[ at least a thousand. maybe more! ] 'slike a curse. Magic curse. Bullshit magic donkey monk foolish curses. Stupid magic. This place cheats.
[the worst of whatever molly was wallowing in seems to fade a bit now that he's not alone again for the moment. reaching over to try one of the lychees and - delight? these shits is good as hell.
and definite amusement at gu yun trying to force himself to not be high, just reaching to wrap his arms and legs and tail around him in whatever way he can and curling up with him.]
I've never relaxed a day in my life. [ he says this so utterly confidently? this is not something to be proud of
anyway. he lets molly worm into his space with no trouble, floppy and boneless and lazy, making a pleased noise at the sudden warmth and invasion of space. for a moment, gu yun soaks in the sensation like he would when he's blind, of skin and tail and warmth and all of the nice things about this that he had last week. only now he can see them! it's great! he ends up perching his elbow on molly's shoulder to immediately wind his fingers into his curls. it is so utterly satisfying?? can't explain it, but he tugs them gently and winds his fingers around the curl.
there's a brief moment where that lazy, floaty spread of his emotions seems to pause, again, because he just
starts giggling, at "tasting things willy nilly", an ugly snort that turns into laughter that he would normally at least attempt to muffle, but it's genuinely funny that he was tasting it!! he's always tasting weird things!! molly's so cute and also probably going to die doing that someday and that's terrifying!!! haha wow anxiety
he shakes his head, though after a second, mushing it into the pillow a bit. ] Told you that's a foolish idea. It's... it's, there's a saying. Can't remember it, though.
... Don't just taste weird things, you're supposed to taste food. Jelly donuts. Things like that. Oh. [ ... ] Now I'm hungry.
[okay all of the giggling and sillyness and playing with his hair is really chasing off a lot of bad feelings, just content to lean into this instead for the moment. it isn't as if the grief is gone, but just moves to an undercurrent. something in another room, just for the moment. he makes a noise in the back of his throat that's almost a purr, a little animalistic (demonic, maybe) sound of happiness now that he's here.]
That's why I told you to bring the snacks.
[Taking that lychee that rolled out and then just offering it out? just eat something, you dumb high baby.]
he's going to be mortified when it all wears off, probably, but that's fine. for the moment, gu yun just settles into place with molly and lets him contain him on this like, plane of existence with all of his limbs. there's a reason why even when they fooled around at the planetarium way back when - that feels like decades ago - he'd really only taken what came secondhand. with no inhibition on it, his emotions are loose and free, radiating contented warmth and fascination, pleased, doting affection, with that hint of anxiety buried underneath.
and there's food. ah! but. his hands are busy, right now, playing with those fabulous curls, occasionally brushing against jewelry for the feeling of little chains over his fingers like water. so! gu yun also opens his mouth and leans forward to just eat that lychee right out of his fingers. it's so juicy and the the texture is good, so, his eyes close and he makes a content, sort of giggly noise. yes perfect! what a great idea. ]
molly doesn't think he should be mortified at all. he's having a good time like this, isn't he? Just enjoying himself and some fun sensations for a little bit. it's nothing so strong he'll do anything really embarrassing right? Maybe. molly's done much worse with very few regrets, but that's also likely the crux of how they're built differently. just in certain places. he doesn't crave any of the type of control gu yun seems to.
anyway, there's a flash of, uh, something at the lychee being taken like that, and he lets his fingers - the edge of his claws - linger for a moment. and then going to find another one for him.]
So this is how it gets you. You're silly. That's cute.
gu yun doesn't seem to mind the lingering all that much, as it follows with belated interest. it's certainly not unfamiliar, at this point. settling into place, he lifts his head and tucks his cheek into the crook of his arm, smiling. just... at ease, at least the best he can be. the anxiety seems to have faded away a little further, and he's surprisingly patient? just vibing, waiting for more fruit and/or fingers.
oh, wait though. with a big, bright smile; ] I'm adorable. [ gu yun proclaims, like he is just so proud of himself for this, also. he'd probably say that normally. ]
[he may have both, though it's a strawberry this time. fingers are the same though, and he pauses to cup gu yun's chin in his hand and leans over for a smooch while he's at it.]
[ oh, kisses. kisses are good, more of that please. there's a gentle burst of affection that comes with it, a flutter that's a bit harder to name, and the warmth of amusement that seems to follow him constantly. there's always something, a private little joke, coy and playful in his eyes, and it reflects back even amongst his bared emotions, even feeling like this.
against his mouth, in a hum - ] I did. [ before he's leaning forward a little clumsily to kiss him again, momentarily losing interest in anything else but that. it's just a press, but it lingers; tastes like strawberries. ]
[He can have as many as he likes, molly just wants more of that affection and amusement and chasing whatever that flutter of something is, making that content noise against his mouth again - hands moving to pull him closer by the waist now. he only pulls back enough to quip a little in between more playful kissing.]
You're ruining a perfectly good wallow I had going.
[ molly hands come to his waist and he can't help himself, at first, the ticklish laughter that comes bursting out of his mouth - normally he'd complain and wriggle away from it, but right now, it just kind of feels extra funny to be so ticklish? it just feels different.
so one kiss, two, three - the rumble of molly's voice sends a pleasant rush of gooseflesh up his arms. ] Sorry. [ a beat. ] No, wait, I'm not sorry at all. You're...
[ gu yun trails off for a moment, there, and gets distracted again, ducking his head in for another kiss (nearly missing it), because he's liking the way their mouths fit together, how nice it is just to feel it, and... eventually, he seems to pause again, remembering himself, nose wrinkling like he's thinking. he's got to pull the thought back properly, but...
gu yun pulls back just enough to look at him, tilting his head up a bit to do so. ]
...Company. It helped. [ it was weeks ago molly said that, but -- then again, it's been weeks since this happened in the first place. ] No?
[He's just watching him as he pulls back, sitting up on his forearms enough to lean over and watch - eyes tracking him with a bit of worry as he seems to struggle with finding the right things to say.
And there's a fresh bit of -- something at the reminder of that night.]
I could not tell you, right now, if thirty seconds passed or six weeks.
[ there's a little bit of his more normal dryness to that tone, but. as molly leans over him, gu yun finally untangles his fingers from his hair, enough to touch his cheek, instead. it's right there - can't resist.
that feeling is a little tentative and nameless, but - in its own right, its a feedback loop. ]
Mmm... it does, though. 's a bit like... we've all known each other forever.
[6 weeks out of two years is a long time! he leans his cheek against the hand, giving him a crooked grin, and then getting another lychee - rudely eating it himself.]
[ that is a very funny joke, so he just snickers to it way more than he probably should, keeping his hand on molly's cheek. he'll feel the emotional shift, there, that same flutter returning under lazy, floaty warmth. ]
Lychee. They're sweet. Too sweet, but I want to eat a thousand of them at the moment. Popular in.. ah... [ thinking... thinking... ] Jiangbei, by the harbor... that's it.
[ he feels around for a moment and picks up another one with his free hand, just absently rubbing his fingers along the surface at first. squishy. ]
there's a beat, where that anxious feeling rises up again. gu yun goes a little more solemn, looking at the space where molly was, and then up at the ceiling. ]
... I suppose so. [ his attention stays there, emotions shifting - melancholy, a little bitterness. ] I don't know how to have free time. I'm not even sure I know who I am, if I'm not the Marquis of Order. Isn't that sad?
[ luckily, he doesn't seem to dwell on it much, at least. the anxious twist fades, a bit, burrowing under a gentler feeling.
he opens his eyes again, tilting his head to look over at molly where he's settled back down, and just... taking him in for a moment. his emotions drift, floating somewhere in a nebulous space. ]
...I like you plenty, too. [ is what he finally decides to say. honest, for someone who is rarely honest with any emotions at all. ] Far more than lychees.
[Well it's hard not to feel a little embarrassed by the whole being gazed at thing. not humiliated embarrassed, just. a new, odd sensation. And then vanity, at being looked at like that.]
Well I'm farther-flung fruit. Can't exactly pick up a tiefling in Jiangbei.
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anyhoo it's like a good. twenty minutes i'm so sorry before there's a knock on the door! here's gu yun, and he's got a big, huge container full of strawberries. like, so many. there are a bunch of lychees too?
also a whole container of bao buns. it's fine. the timing of this was hysterical. he's got his liuli glass perched on his nose. ]
Snacks. [ ta da ]
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so you know sometimes when there's emotion share week and you aren't make eye contact with someone until they open the door and there's just a WAVE of grief and homesick and guilt that hits you probably like a truck
but also like a lot of really powerful affection and like. something else. the second he sees him haha bad
i didn't have a good metaphor that's just what's happening. it's probably not super fun if you're really high while it's washing over you either. molly still lets him in, immediately going to just grab strawberries]
Having a good time, I see.
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considering his mental functions are. somewhere! at the moment, he ends up blinking sort of slowly as it all hits at once, and there's a belated second where he has like no emotional reaction at all because his system is still processing.
...however, what blooms out in return is a matching amount of affection and warmth, something more utterly genuine than gu yun ever puts a face on for. there's concern for all of that grief and sorrow, too, and a thick, anxious chord that lies just underneath, obviously so, but it dwarfs in comparison. in a normal situation, he'd likely be running a hundred li an hour to avoid it, or cracking jokes over it, but right now, none of that seems to matter because he's high as a kite from being a good boy and investigating.
he seems to just sort of. sort through his own emotions for a second? and when he takes the box of strawberries he shakes back to reality a bit. ] Mmf. I think so? I don't think so.
This...is terrible. [ is what gu yun ends up declaring, though who knows what part of it is. he shuffles after molly, not even pausing to take his shoes off (this is the clearest sign that he is not his normal self). the anxiety stays even then. ] Bed. I just want to pet your hair.
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molly himself isn't like. fully dressed or anything - he's managed to pull his leggings and a shirt on maybe but for once he is not in shoes. can't wallow properly with shoes on. also like, he just hasn't really gotten out of bed.]
Frumpkin's going to be jealous.
[Taking his strawberries back to the room with them, just flopping back into it.]
. . . Sorry. I know it's a lot. It just-- feels all fucking raw again. How could I be that fucking stupid?
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anyhow. some of it fades as he makes his way over to the bed, flopping down without any ceremony. the lychees go with him - a couple fall out and one bops him on the nose, but he just sort of wiggles his nose at the situation and snorts like its a little funny, then rolls onto his side.
he really has to force himself to focus and pay attention, which molly will likely get the sense of - his emotions flash a little bit of stubbornness, like he is trying to physically force himself to snap out of this? what a control freak.
anyway it doesn't work for more than ten seconds so he just listens and processes, then scoots over on the bed and drops his cheek against his shoulder. the material of his shirt's really soft and molly smells good... ahhh... there's like another ten seconds of silence.
wait. ]
...Mm... You don't have to apologize. The same thing happened to Primrose... She forgot something that she wouldn't've ever forgotten, in a thousand years.
[ at least a thousand. maybe more! ] 'slike a curse. Magic curse. Bullshit magic donkey monk foolish curses. Stupid magic. This place cheats.
[ reaching out and patpating his chest once. ]
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and definite amusement at gu yun trying to force himself to not be high, just reaching to wrap his arms and legs and tail around him in whatever way he can and curling up with him.]
Just relax, darling, at least enjoy it.
[laughing a bit at the anti-magic rant too.]
It's my own fault. Tasting things willy-nilly.
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anyway. he lets molly worm into his space with no trouble, floppy and boneless and lazy, making a pleased noise at the sudden warmth and invasion of space. for a moment, gu yun soaks in the sensation like he would when he's blind, of skin and tail and warmth and all of the nice things about this that he had last week. only now he can see them! it's great! he ends up perching his elbow on molly's shoulder to immediately wind his fingers into his curls. it is so utterly satisfying?? can't explain it, but he tugs them gently and winds his fingers around the curl.
there's a brief moment where that lazy, floaty spread of his emotions seems to pause, again, because he just
starts giggling, at "tasting things willy nilly", an ugly snort that turns into laughter that he would normally at least attempt to muffle, but it's genuinely funny that he was tasting it!! he's always tasting weird things!! molly's so cute and also probably going to die doing that someday and that's terrifying!!! haha wow anxiety
he shakes his head, though after a second, mushing it into the pillow a bit. ] Told you that's a foolish idea. It's... it's, there's a saying. Can't remember it, though.
... Don't just taste weird things, you're supposed to taste food. Jelly donuts. Things like that. Oh. [ ... ] Now I'm hungry.
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[okay all of the giggling and sillyness and playing with his hair is really chasing off a lot of bad feelings, just content to lean into this instead for the moment. it isn't as if the grief is gone, but just moves to an undercurrent. something in another room, just for the moment. he makes a noise in the back of his throat that's almost a purr, a little animalistic (demonic, maybe) sound of happiness now that he's here.]
That's why I told you to bring the snacks.
[Taking that lychee that rolled out and then just offering it out? just eat something, you dumb high baby.]
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he's going to be mortified when it all wears off, probably, but that's fine. for the moment, gu yun just settles into place with molly and lets him contain him on this like, plane of existence with all of his limbs. there's a reason why even when they fooled around at the planetarium way back when - that feels like decades ago - he'd really only taken what came secondhand. with no inhibition on it, his emotions are loose and free, radiating contented warmth and fascination, pleased, doting affection, with that hint of anxiety buried underneath.
and there's food. ah! but. his hands are busy, right now, playing with those fabulous curls, occasionally brushing against jewelry for the feeling of little chains over his fingers like water. so! gu yun also opens his mouth and leans forward to just eat that lychee right out of his fingers. it's so juicy and the the texture is good, so, his eyes close and he makes a content, sort of giggly noise. yes perfect! what a great idea. ]
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molly doesn't think he should be mortified at all. he's having a good time like this, isn't he? Just enjoying himself and some fun sensations for a little bit. it's nothing so strong he'll do anything really embarrassing right? Maybe. molly's done much worse with very few regrets, but that's also likely the crux of how they're built differently. just in certain places. he doesn't crave any of the type of control gu yun seems to.
anyway, there's a flash of, uh, something at the lychee being taken like that, and he lets his fingers - the edge of his claws - linger for a moment. and then going to find another one for him.]
So this is how it gets you. You're silly. That's cute.
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gu yun doesn't seem to mind the lingering all that much, as it follows with belated interest. it's certainly not unfamiliar, at this point. settling into place, he lifts his head and tucks his cheek into the crook of his arm, smiling. just... at ease, at least the best he can be. the anxiety seems to have faded away a little further, and he's surprisingly patient? just vibing, waiting for more fruit and/or fingers.
oh, wait though. with a big, bright smile; ] I'm adorable. [ gu yun proclaims, like he is just so proud of himself for this, also. he'd probably say that normally. ]
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I said cute, I didn't go all the way to adorable.
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against his mouth, in a hum - ] I did. [ before he's leaning forward a little clumsily to kiss him again, momentarily losing interest in anything else but that. it's just a press, but it lingers; tastes like strawberries. ]
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You're ruining a perfectly good wallow I had going.
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so one kiss, two, three - the rumble of molly's voice sends a pleasant rush of gooseflesh up his arms. ] Sorry. [ a beat. ] No, wait, I'm not sorry at all. You're...
[ gu yun trails off for a moment, there, and gets distracted again, ducking his head in for another kiss (nearly missing it), because he's liking the way their mouths fit together, how nice it is just to feel it, and... eventually, he seems to pause again, remembering himself, nose wrinkling like he's thinking. he's got to pull the thought back properly, but...
gu yun pulls back just enough to look at him, tilting his head up a bit to do so. ]
...Company. It helped. [ it was weeks ago molly said that, but -- then again, it's been weeks since this happened in the first place. ] No?
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And there's a fresh bit of -- something at the reminder of that night.]
Feels like years ago, doesn't it?
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[ there's a little bit of his more normal dryness to that tone, but. as molly leans over him, gu yun finally untangles his fingers from his hair, enough to touch his cheek, instead. it's right there - can't resist.
that feeling is a little tentative and nameless, but - in its own right, its a feedback loop. ]
Mmm... it does, though. 's a bit like... we've all known each other forever.
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[6 weeks out of two years is a long time! he leans his cheek against the hand, giving him a crooked grin, and then getting another lychee - rudely eating it himself.]
What are these? Good stuff.
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Lychee. They're sweet. Too sweet, but I want to eat a thousand of them at the moment. Popular in.. ah... [ thinking... thinking... ] Jiangbei, by the harbor... that's it.
[ he feels around for a moment and picks up another one with his free hand, just absently rubbing his fingers along the surface at first. squishy. ]
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When you go back, you'll probably have nothing but time to just eat thousands of them.
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there's a beat, where that anxious feeling rises up again. gu yun goes a little more solemn, looking at the space where molly was, and then up at the ceiling. ]
... I suppose so. [ his attention stays there, emotions shifting - melancholy, a little bitterness. ] I don't know how to have free time. I'm not even sure I know who I am, if I'm not the Marquis of Order. Isn't that sad?
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I'm sorry-- Don't think about it right now. I just brought it up for selfish reasons.
[. . . just tracing the edge of his jaw with a nail, tired, a little melancholy himself.]
If it helps, I don't really know you as the Marquis of Order at all. And I still like you plenty.
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he opens his eyes again, tilting his head to look over at molly where he's settled back down, and just... taking him in for a moment. his emotions drift, floating somewhere in a nebulous space. ]
...I like you plenty, too. [ is what he finally decides to say. honest, for someone who is rarely honest with any emotions at all. ] Far more than lychees.
[ lychees are too sweet anyway. ]
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Well I'm farther-flung fruit. Can't exactly pick up a tiefling in Jiangbei.
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[ the way he'd just never say something like this if he wasn't on a government assigned high because it's way too embarrassing
but it sure isn't dishonest, if his emotions are anything to go by! hm! ]
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