[she watches him do that, a little concerned, but:]
I knew this offer was suspicious when I took it, but I didn’t think it would be like this, either. If this was going to be the set up, they could have just let us fight it out at the start instead of dragging it out like this.
I think the time is part of the strategy if you ask me to try and ... analyze the fucked mind that came up with it. The longer it goes, the more desperate some might get.
I thought it'd be alright, because I came here alone. I could handle what it threw at me. Couldn't be worse than just going back to my cold grave.
I'm much older than most of you, right? So this has seemed like a much shorter span of time to me than it does for you, probably. And this isn't really any worse than what I'm used to, either, so... It's probably harder for most people to deal with.
If anything it's cured me of any desire to stick around places longer. Sticking around certain people longer, sure, but places? I'm not about it so much. Too much to see and do.
Besides, you stay in one place and you just start kissing the same folks over and over. Muddies the waters a bit.
[Oh-- he pauses? Looking over. I mean, is it a wild assumption? anyone who says they might not miss the murder sex clown dungeon probably isn't super looking forward to heading home.]
Ah. You're right. I shouldn't have assumed. Just from the way you said that ... I don't know. Maybe you should just know. The option could exist.
[it isn’t a wild assumption at all, honestly - she’s just at a weird place with that thought specifically.]
There are nicer places, from what I’ve heard, but - you know. Family. [...] Besides, if I make it to the end of all this and get what I’m wishing for, it might be less...
It's not like that! [hmmmm] Anyways, it's not quite a long story, but...
[She crosses her arms, frowning.]
You remember that girl I told you about? The one who wanted to see the stars, the stupid one who I don't like at all. [stop] She had - someone who was traveling with her, I guess you could say. He was a good friend to everyone. Too good! Too nice, too willing to stick his neck out for other people. It's really annoying. When that girl got hurt too badly to continue, he offered to take a special test for permission to take her further up the tower. But that sort of kindness never works out for anyone.
[sighing, but annoyed rather than upset.]
When I first got here, I just wanted to bring him back so I could tell him how mad I was that he was so stupid! But then I realized that even if he came back, he'd probably just do something stupid again and get killed again! So I realized a better plan would be to make sure that my home is somewhere that someone as softhearted as him could live. [sighs again.] Now I have to work twice as hard for a bigger wish! He's put me through a lot! I'm going to punch him when I go home.
[if she phrases this as being annoyed and put out, it definitely means that she is not being selfless and does not have feelings? it's fine.]
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I knew this offer was suspicious when I took it, but I didn’t think it would be like this, either. If this was going to be the set up, they could have just let us fight it out at the start instead of dragging it out like this.
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I thought it'd be alright, because I came here alone. I could handle what it threw at me. Couldn't be worse than just going back to my cold grave.
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...This is really getting to you, isn't it?
[she's not very good at showing worry, but there's more than normal of it in her voice.]
I guess it's been a long few weeks for most people.
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Guess I'm being a bit melodramatic, aren't I?
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[She pauses, shifting a little.]
I'm much older than most of you, right? So this has seemed like a much shorter span of time to me than it does for you, probably. And this isn't really any worse than what I'm used to, either, so... It's probably harder for most people to deal with.
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[two years.]
Been here longer than I've been anywhere in my life, actually.
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[she exhales, a little heavy.]
Well, hopefully after this you can beat the record in someplace nicer.
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Besides, you stay in one place and you just start kissing the same folks over and over. Muddies the waters a bit.
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[snorts.]
Ah, how awful. Having to kiss someone more than once.
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[Nodding? It is terrible?]
It is awful.
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[tacky! but she sighs, a little amused.]
Awful or not, I might almost miss it when all this is over and I go home.
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Going to a home you don't really want to go back to.
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Why do you assume I don’t want to go back?
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Ah. You're right. I shouldn't have assumed. Just from the way you said that ... I don't know. Maybe you should just know. The option could exist.
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[it isn’t a wild assumption at all, honestly - she’s just at a weird place with that thought specifically.]
There are nicer places, from what I’ve heard, but - you know. Family. [...] Besides, if I make it to the end of all this and get what I’m wishing for, it might be less...
[she trails off.]
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[he's making
the face.]
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[not the face!!]
It’s not for me, anyways. I’m not soft enough that I need it to be kinder.
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anyway he knows he got thrown on his ass for this last time but he still gets up to sling an arm around her shoulder, snorting a bit of a laugh]
I won't say anything.
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I’m not hiding it or anything! You’re just making it seem like a bigger deal than it is...
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What is it, then?
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You’re going to make fun of me if you hear the explanation...
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Swear on my own grave, I will not utter a word, make a face or visibly react in any way to your obviously very selfless deepest desire.
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[She crosses her arms, frowning.]
You remember that girl I told you about? The one who wanted to see the stars, the stupid one who I don't like at all. [stop] She had - someone who was traveling with her, I guess you could say. He was a good friend to everyone. Too good! Too nice, too willing to stick his neck out for other people. It's really annoying. When that girl got hurt too badly to continue, he offered to take a special test for permission to take her further up the tower. But that sort of kindness never works out for anyone.
[sighing, but annoyed rather than upset.]
When I first got here, I just wanted to bring him back so I could tell him how mad I was that he was so stupid! But then I realized that even if he came back, he'd probably just do something stupid again and get killed again! So I realized a better plan would be to make sure that my home is somewhere that someone as softhearted as him could live. [sighs again.] Now I have to work twice as hard for a bigger wish! He's put me through a lot! I'm going to punch him when I go home.
[if she phrases this as being annoyed and put out, it definitely means that she is not being selfless and does not have feelings? it's fine.]