[oh of fucking course it's this one. this particular fucking memory (the event itself, even) loves to pop its head up and ruin a perfectly grand time.
molly looks a little distant for a moment, still just holding that cactus needle. then after a second, he seems to come to, flicking the needle off to a corner of the room and letting his expression fade back into-- well. normal.]
Don't just say that. Lucien could have loved to drill holes in people's heads.
I do not. And if I did, I don't think I'd brag about it.
[a smile right back!
And on that, I think, we can fully agree. Let the past lie in its grave. [Going for one more needle at least, tail swaying, for all appearances perfectly casual.] As for who I am now-- I'll tell you in aligned to Pride for a reason. I like this person. This person is happy. Or. Well, happier, when my friends aren't dying around me. But I enjoy the way I live, I thought I did my good turns well enough to balance the scales, and that's really enough for me.
You can just forget about all that shit in that memory, if you like. That is the story of a dead man. He didn't want this body. I do.
[haha well. if you died and then lost your memories and everyone watched as you became a clown, you might be sort of pissed off too. (anyway, who says he didn't want it back?)]
I agree! And I could say the same for you, you know.
[ . . . . there's just a little bit of a laugh at that, sheepish.]
.... I don't know. I think the person I was before I got here... wasn't that great. Takeru's pretty mean to me, but I actually think that of everyone, he's got a reason to be.
[ . . . ]
I was just the type of person where... I wouldn't blame anybody if they got fed up with me.
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molly looks a little distant for a moment, still just holding that cactus needle. then after a second, he seems to come to, flicking the needle off to a corner of the room and letting his expression fade back into-- well. normal.]
Don't just say that. Lucien could have loved to drill holes in people's heads.
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But you don't, right?
[and he tilts his head thoughtfully]
... It's not really my business what you do with your past - and I... I didn't get to run from mine anymore until it literally caught up to me.
But I think what you choose to do with the time you do have matters.... And what you do with the person you can be now.
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[a smile right back!
And on that, I think, we can fully agree. Let the past lie in its grave. [Going for one more needle at least, tail swaying, for all appearances perfectly casual.] As for who I am now-- I'll tell you in aligned to Pride for a reason. I like this person. This person is happy. Or. Well, happier, when my friends aren't dying around me. But I enjoy the way I live, I thought I did my good turns well enough to balance the scales, and that's really enough for me.
You can just forget about all that shit in that memory, if you like. That is the story of a dead man. He didn't want this body. I do.
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.... I don't know why he wouldn't want it. Everything about you is pretty great.
[it's a confusing thought to him, and he means his words sincerely.]
But... if you're happy then - I'm happy for you too. I don't think that it needs to be more complicated than that.
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I agree! And I could say the same for you, you know.
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.... I don't know. I think the person I was before I got here... wasn't that great. Takeru's pretty mean to me, but I actually think that of everyone, he's got a reason to be.
[ . . . ]
I was just the type of person where... I wouldn't blame anybody if they got fed up with me.