[He doesn't complain or whine or pull away from any of the cleaning. He'd meant it when he said he'd looked worse, and he can handle a little bit of pain. Probably the scars speak to that. So he just sniffs some and rubs at his teeth briefly to wipe away the last of the blood taste.
He looks Mineo up and down after he says that, but. It's so hard to stay angry with him. He never feels like Mineo has ill-intentions.]
I tried everything I could. [Lying, fighting, begging] But obviously I don't do so well on my own.
I don't want to be angry with anyone. I'm not-- I don't like that person. I don't want to be him.
[ . . . . he pauses at this and. just moves to sit down on the floor. guess they're doing this. he looks left, and right, just to make sure no one else is coming or approaching, but.]
... penalty game - the card backstory one, except I don't have any cards and I don't have any lies.
[because he feels like... he has to explain something. some of his own reaction.]
... someone that I knew - I lost him a few months back. He was a friend, and I thought... the world of him. But he got abducted one day, and somebody released a video of him saying he was gonna be judged. For - for justice. Because of a crime they said he committed, and I thought... that's all shit. No way. Then... no matter how hard I looked, or how I tried to find him - I didn't make it in time, and they -
[killed him in an execution.
he pauses.]
.... s'not the same. Beauregard-san's innocent, and I'm - still gonna try to find a way to help her until I can't anymore. [he'll try anything, he really will.] But I thought, in trial... I would've done the same thing you did, to protect someone I cared about, even if I suspected them.
[it's why he said no matter what happened, he'd come to molly with ramen, because he doesn't want to hate him either - even if he might've been covering for a murderer]
... I think you're better than I am, for not wanting to be angry. But if you are, I get that too. You love your friends way too much to not be upset.
.... I just wanna be your friend, too - even if I've gotta climb way uphill to earn it. You don't have to keep going on your own.
[He just listens, quietly, to this terrible story that just confirms more of what he believes about Mineo. A good, genuine, person. A truly kind heart. Maybe a little too kind for this place on top of everything else to seems to be happening in his life.]
I'm sorry.
[He'd meant it when he said he doesn't have it in him to hold that sort of anger at Mineo, or anyone really. The person that did this Beauregard might be a different story, but a bridge to be crossed later.]
You don't have to earn anything. You are my friend. As long as you're trying to help. Really the only qualifier is working towards the same goal-- and. I'll have to be clear, I don't care about the truth, or justice. I just want to leave this place better than I found it. And I'll need to leave it with Beauregard.
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But I still thought it could have been her. And now I have to live with that.
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and when molly's face is clear of blood, he puts the towel aside and just looks at him.]
.... you know, I didn't trust either of you. I thought.... it kept looking suspicious, so....
[he didn't help. takeru didn't help. mineo isn't blind to what they contributed, and so he pauses.]
.... I know you've got more reason to be mad at me than to accept anything from me but -
I can live with my choices, and you can live with yours, and we can try to live with them together. I don't know how to make this right... but I -
I do wanna try.
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He looks Mineo up and down after he says that, but. It's so hard to stay angry with him. He never feels like Mineo has ill-intentions.]
I tried everything I could. [Lying, fighting, begging] But obviously I don't do so well on my own.
I don't want to be angry with anyone. I'm not-- I don't like that person. I don't want to be him.
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... penalty game - the card backstory one, except I don't have any cards and I don't have any lies.
[because he feels like... he has to explain something. some of his own reaction.]
... someone that I knew - I lost him a few months back. He was a friend, and I thought... the world of him. But he got abducted one day, and somebody released a video of him saying he was gonna be judged. For - for justice. Because of a crime they said he committed, and I thought... that's all shit. No way. Then... no matter how hard I looked, or how I tried to find him - I didn't make it in time, and they -
[killed him in an execution.
he pauses.]
.... s'not the same. Beauregard-san's innocent, and I'm - still gonna try to find a way to help her until I can't anymore. [he'll try anything, he really will.] But I thought, in trial... I would've done the same thing you did, to protect someone I cared about, even if I suspected them.
[it's why he said no matter what happened, he'd come to molly with ramen, because he doesn't want to hate him either - even if he might've been covering for a murderer]
... I think you're better than I am, for not wanting to be angry. But if you are, I get that too. You love your friends way too much to not be upset.
.... I just wanna be your friend, too - even if I've gotta climb way uphill to earn it. You don't have to keep going on your own.
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I'm sorry.
[He'd meant it when he said he doesn't have it in him to hold that sort of anger at Mineo, or anyone really. The person that did this Beauregard might be a different story, but a bridge to be crossed later.]
You don't have to earn anything. You are my friend. As long as you're trying to help. Really the only qualifier is working towards the same goal-- and. I'll have to be clear, I don't care about the truth, or justice. I just want to leave this place better than I found it. And I'll need to leave it with Beauregard.
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but what he knows is just one thing -
he doesn't want to leave someone alone, the way that he felt. feels.]
... that's okay. I think... I'm having more trouble, dealing with people who care a whole lot about justice when no one agrees on what it means.
[he wants to care about justice but - not when it's this murky. he shakes his head.]
I like your definition better. And I'll do everything I can to help you accomplish what you're after. Promise.