[mollymauk "joy can fill a lot in a person's life" tealeaf is definitely that obnoxious person you know who just seems genuinely happy and shit and you hate them for it a little.]
And you? Your grand plans?
[He's a little wary about this question, because. well. there's a lot going on with harrow. but. there's followups he has so it's fine.]
. . . A slightly problematic question, because as you know, I don't know my own wish and what it might affect.
[Among other reasons it's problematic. Because she's just been realizing that little flaw. "I'd like to go back to being happy again." For most people, for most of her friends, being here is unbearably painful.
And here she is, dreading that it may soon come to an end.]
Putting that aside, I'll be returning to the Mithraeum. Studying under the tutelage of God until I can become a true Lyctor.
[no offense harrow but he's seen a pretty good sizzle reel of your memories and a good place it does not seem! it does not seem. but it might be time to admit something.]
It's a good one, I promise. And-- the Avatars seem to know. The problem is I don't think I can explain it. At least not right now. Sort of a man and a manticore situation.
Oh. [She blinks, a little confused by this for a second - ]
Yes, I know. Despair has also offered to fix the problem and let me remember if I choose to. I've been considering the strategic merits of it, but I've fairly certain the health consequences of my current condition aren't worth a return to the prior state.
[DESPAIR COULD JUST FIX YOUR BRAIN THIS WHOLE TIME HARROW
i mean thats fine i guess molly has also just never asked if he could get someone to exorcise nonagon out of his body either so its fine]
Yes, I think so. [he doesn't follow up with how if she couldn't remember, he was prepared to just. make the wish for her.
...leaning forward, putting his hand on his chin, drumming his nails on the table.] And continuing my arrogant declarations, I don't think you should go back either. I don't know how it will work, or ... I've been approaching all this with an ask forgiveness, not permission strategy. Fuck it if they tell us anything is "ill-advised." Coming here at all was ill-advised, so might as well ask for the whole dozen. But you should get your wish and then take it far from that place.
[This whole time! Despair could just fix her dang brain! But we can talk about this later, because the new line of commentary hits on something she's been dwelling on lately.
She listens to him, expression a little blank, hard to read.]
My understanding is it is not possible, so it's a moot point. And even if it was possible, I couldn't. So there's very little to discuss on that topic.
Your understanding ... ? Think I'd take more of the same "forgiveness not permission" tactic if I were you. Just say you're going to-- Exandria and let them figure it the fuck out.
[Well! That's certainly a statement from Envy. He can't exactly argue, in the context it seems like she explicitly asked but ... why not just demand a better answer. that doesn't seem the harrow way.]
Look, I-- Fine. We'll pick this up later. Like you said, you know your wish is a good one now.
[there's that arrogant optimism again. Frumpkin bats at the bone, and in the way of cats, might try and bite her finger too.]
That's right. In a general sense-- Not really from anywhere in particular. Wandered the Empire a bit, when I was with the Carnival we poked our heads into Xhorhas. Never left Wildemount or anything. Big place though. Lots to do and see.
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And you? Your grand plans?
[He's a little wary about this question, because. well. there's a lot going on with harrow. but. there's followups he has so it's fine.]
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[Among other reasons it's problematic. Because she's just been realizing that little flaw. "I'd like to go back to being happy again." For most people, for most of her friends, being here is unbearably painful.
And here she is, dreading that it may soon come to an end.]
Putting that aside, I'll be returning to the Mithraeum. Studying under the tutelage of God until I can become a true Lyctor.
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I know what your wish is. I think.
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Oh. Do you?
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[And then, quickly:]
It's a good one, I promise. And-- the Avatars seem to know. The problem is I don't think I can explain it. At least not right now. Sort of a man and a manticore situation.
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Yes, I know. Despair has also offered to fix the problem and let me remember if I choose to. I've been considering the strategic merits of it, but I've fairly certain the health consequences of my current condition aren't worth a return to the prior state.
. . . It's a good wish? Even you think so?
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i mean thats fine i guess molly has also just never asked if he could get someone to exorcise nonagon out of his body either so its fine]
Yes, I think so. [he doesn't follow up with how if she couldn't remember, he was prepared to just. make the wish for her.
...leaning forward, putting his hand on his chin, drumming his nails on the table.] And continuing my arrogant declarations, I don't think you should go back either. I don't know how it will work, or ... I've been approaching all this with an ask forgiveness, not permission strategy. Fuck it if they tell us anything is "ill-advised." Coming here at all was ill-advised, so might as well ask for the whole dozen. But you should get your wish and then take it far from that place.
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She listens to him, expression a little blank, hard to read.]
My understanding is it is not possible, so it's a moot point. And even if it was possible, I couldn't. So there's very little to discuss on that topic.
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Your understanding ... ? Think I'd take more of the same "forgiveness not permission" tactic if I were you. Just say you're going to-- Exandria and let them figure it the fuck out.
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[Which she can't do.]
It will all be fine. My wish is a good one - that's more than I knew yesterday.
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[but he makes a bit of a face at the second bit.]
Don't start adding bits about dragging your problems places. That's a solvable issue and you know it.
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[It was in the middle of Envy talking about his own problems, but she doesn't add that exclusively because Envy could eavesdrop on this conversation.]
Is it? Shall I add a few more miracles to my debt? Or will I need to kill to make it happen? That I cannot do.
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Look, I-- Fine. We'll pick this up later. Like you said, you know your wish is a good one now.
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[She has that sort of blank expression on her face again. It's probably fine.]
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You and I both know very well that I will not let anything be.
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[She leans on her hand, propping it up against the table. Wiggles a bone for Frumpkin.]
What's Exandria? Where you're from?
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That's right. In a general sense-- Not really from anywhere in particular. Wandered the Empire a bit, when I was with the Carnival we poked our heads into Xhorhas. Never left Wildemount or anything. Big place though. Lots to do and see.
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[I feel like Harrow gets her feelings hurt every time Frumpkin does this, but she's paying too much attention to the conversation right now.]
At least ask.
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Fine. Consider this asking.
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[She absolutely does. Anyway, she's frowning. It's kind of an odd expression again, but not blank, just. Kind of sad.]
As I said, no. But thank you for asking.