[Sigh. How to explain this. Well. It would be easy to kind of explain this, but. Harrow.]
. . . Misa once told me that she's had a few near death experiences, and that turned into a fascination and a preoccupation with death. She's very interested it in, and that seemed to transfer to an odd. . . attachment to me. [So like. Basically Misa told Harrow all her plans because she thinks Harrow is hot.]
I don't think she wanted assistance. I think she just wanted to confide in someone, and chose poorly.
I haven't been able to decide. That is to say, I have a few different strategies in mind, I just wasn't sure whether I was feeling the correct amount of badly about completely betraying her unasked for confidence. We have. . . spent some time together, so it feels a little cold, but. . . murder.
[No, it. Feels good to laugh. She wanted to talk about this with her friend but he was busy having dumb fucking love drama.]
She has rightly pointed out that if I expose her, she'll surely be killed by someone else who wants a target they don't have to feel too bad about. Which makes me feel a little badly.
What I think I've settled on is to use my power to give her an obsession on Thursday night not to kill anyone. It's risky - it might not stop her.
Could be stay with her? At curfew? Surely it can't be that hard to get some rope, tie her down. We've got the jump on her right now and if we don't mess up in the lead up, she doesn't know that I know.
I know he would. [She genuinely likes White as a person.] I'm only. . . trying to decide the number of people I want to know about this. Currently, it's you. I'll likely talk about it with Sasazuka, too.
By the end of the conversation, it was fairly obvious she knew I wasn't having it, because I was slow in calculating whether it would be more effective to try to talk her out of it or better to play along and gather information. An opportunity missed. [This is a very stupid way to say you just tried to be a decent person before immediately going into strategy mode.]
Doubtful. She's likely as good as dead. But. . . I don't see an acceptable path to a better outcome.
[So that sucks, but it isn't her fault Misa decided to do this and involved her in it.]
Our best bet is to deter her and in the meantime catch a bigger fish. Here's something. Let me know if anyone comes to you excessively curious about our little trap. Endorsi started sniffing around yesterday, asking if we were doing the medbay pods again. Mahito was asking questions, too.
As an FYI, I've learned a little more about Mahito. Apparently, if Gojou is to be trusted, he is exceedingly dangerous. The word used was "psychopath." Gojou hasn't said anything because he thinks as long as Mahito is enjoying himself and doesn't think he's exposed, he's more likely to behave.
Just. . . take it under advisement, to be careful but not to let him know you're being careful.
Better to try and fail, I think. Even if it goes sideways. Maybe . . . maybe she told you because she wanted to be stopped? In some way?
[Or she's just weird, which is also possible. Anyway, Molly just tilts his head at the second part of that. Mahito is ... not too shocking, honestly. He's been very nice to Molly, but, there is something a little odd underneath all that. Endorsi on the other hand, he tightens a hand into the fabric of his coat.]
You can trust Gojou. [Weirdly enough. I mean. He seems pretty foreright with his shit anyway. But.] You think Endorsi ... I don't know. I don't want to think she would. She said-- [Well.] I don't think she's a bad person.
I don't think so, either. I think she would be fairly ruthless for the sake of her wish, and perhaps for the sake of other things. And she is smart, so she is dangerous.
[She's not close to Endorsi, but she does know what she's here to do, and she feels like it gave her a little insight.]
As for Misa - I don't think she wanted to be stopped. She's prepared to die for what she's after. I just think she wanted - [Bleh. Speculating about people's feelings sucks. But.] - I think she wanted to know there was someone who wouldn't turn against her even if she did this. But there isn't. [So. That's a little ugly and heartbreaking.] She isn't one of the people I would look the other way for.
Guess I just hoped she'd make a different choice, is all. She-- she could've. She can.
[yes. well. he knows a good bit of Endorsi. so maybe it's a false hope.]
You aren't turning against her. Turning against her would be slitting her throat on a Tuesday, or waiting up for her on the night she planned. You aren't going along with it, but you aren't shoving a knife in her back either. Something to be said for that. Think we're getting to where we can't look the other way now.
I'm not such a good person as that. If it was you, I wouldn't look the other way either. I'd insist you let me help you get away clean. If it was you, if it was Vira, if it was Sheila. . .
[She could name more, but she trails off, a little embarrassed.]
Obviously the same, but I think you'd also trust we had good enough reason to do it. I think that's the difference. It's not a good person debate, it's what you can live with.
I. . . don't know whether I'd care if the reason was good, but I would trust that none of you would ask if it wasn't important.
[So, agreed. That's the crux of it - Misa wanted her reassurance, without caring what it cost her. What pain it could potentially cause her. And it has caused her pain.]
I can't call it cruelty. That would require intention. She's. . . nothing more than a broken little girl. [This feels like a really harsh way to put it.] She has nothing and no one and has decided to cling to the only form of love she knows by whatever drastic means she can.
I. . . refuse to be viewed as capable of being injured by someone so pathetic. [Unless, of course, that description also describes her exactly.]
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. . . Misa once told me that she's had a few near death experiences, and that turned into a fascination and a preoccupation with death. She's very interested it in, and that seemed to transfer to an odd. . . attachment to me. [So like. Basically Misa told Harrow all her plans because she thinks Harrow is hot.]
I don't think she wanted assistance. I think she just wanted to confide in someone, and chose poorly.
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Well you don't have to be kind about someone if they're not there!]
She did just watch us work very hard to catch a murderer just two days ago, correct? Little bit dim, that one.
[he can say this because he is also dim.]
. . . So what do we do? Tie her up Thursday night? Expose her publicly tomorrow?
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I haven't been able to decide. That is to say, I have a few different strategies in mind, I just wasn't sure whether I was feeling the correct amount of badly about completely betraying her unasked for confidence. We have. . . spent some time together, so it feels a little cold, but. . . murder.
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[stop harrow will drown you again]
Look, I-- I have no intention of harming her, but surely she could simply. Not. I wouldn't feel badly at all.
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She has rightly pointed out that if I expose her, she'll surely be killed by someone else who wants a target they don't have to feel too bad about. Which makes me feel a little badly.
What I think I've settled on is to use my power to give her an obsession on Thursday night not to kill anyone. It's risky - it might not stop her.
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[Or it could backfire.]
Could be stay with her? At curfew? Surely it can't be that hard to get some rope, tie her down. We've got the jump on her right now and if we don't mess up in the lead up, she doesn't know that I know.
... Did she say who?
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And no. I tried to find out.
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Alright, well - [He makes a face here.]
If I told White, he'd likely help, you know.
[Is he saying that because he loves White or because he genuinely likes White as a person.]
But I-- as I said. I trust you. We'll keep thinking on it. She wouldn't tell you were she was staying on Thursday?
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By the end of the conversation, it was fairly obvious she knew I wasn't having it, because I was slow in calculating whether it would be more effective to try to talk her out of it or better to play along and gather information. An opportunity missed. [This is a very stupid way to say you just tried to be a decent person before immediately going into strategy mode.]
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I think you did right. There's-- Well there's always a better strategy in hindsight. Not worth dwelling on it, I think.
[Sitting down at least, from his pacing.]
. . . We'll help her.
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[So that sucks, but it isn't her fault Misa decided to do this and involved her in it.]
Our best bet is to deter her and in the meantime catch a bigger fish. Here's something. Let me know if anyone comes to you excessively curious about our little trap. Endorsi started sniffing around yesterday, asking if we were doing the medbay pods again. Mahito was asking questions, too.
As an FYI, I've learned a little more about Mahito. Apparently, if Gojou is to be trusted, he is exceedingly dangerous. The word used was "psychopath." Gojou hasn't said anything because he thinks as long as Mahito is enjoying himself and doesn't think he's exposed, he's more likely to behave.
Just. . . take it under advisement, to be careful but not to let him know you're being careful.
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[Or she's just weird, which is also possible. Anyway, Molly just tilts his head at the second part of that. Mahito is ... not too shocking, honestly. He's been very nice to Molly, but, there is something a little odd underneath all that. Endorsi on the other hand, he tightens a hand into the fabric of his coat.]
You can trust Gojou. [Weirdly enough. I mean. He seems pretty foreright with his shit anyway. But.] You think Endorsi ... I don't know. I don't want to think she would. She said-- [Well.] I don't think she's a bad person.
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[She's not close to Endorsi, but she does know what she's here to do, and she feels like it gave her a little insight.]
As for Misa - I don't think she wanted to be stopped. She's prepared to die for what she's after. I just think she wanted - [Bleh. Speculating about people's feelings sucks. But.] - I think she wanted to know there was someone who wouldn't turn against her even if she did this. But there isn't. [So. That's a little ugly and heartbreaking.] She isn't one of the people I would look the other way for.
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[yes. well. he knows a good bit of Endorsi. so maybe it's a false hope.]
You aren't turning against her. Turning against her would be slitting her throat on a Tuesday, or waiting up for her on the night she planned. You aren't going along with it, but you aren't shoving a knife in her back either. Something to be said for that. Think we're getting to where we can't look the other way now.
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[She could name more, but she trails off, a little embarrassed.]
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Obviously the same, but I think you'd also trust we had good enough reason to do it. I think that's the difference. It's not a good person debate, it's what you can live with.
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[So, agreed. That's the crux of it - Misa wanted her reassurance, without caring what it cost her. What pain it could potentially cause her. And it has caused her pain.]
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She was cruel to put this at your feet. It's a cruel thing to ask anyone.
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clapping her on the cheeks]
I'd be less nice about it if I could.
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Fair enough. [She wants to get mad at him for bopping her face like a cat, but she cannot.] I never know what to say when you say that sort of thing.
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[not helping.]
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[She sighs, effects a little bit of a pout.]
I can't call it cruelty. That would require intention. She's. . . nothing more than a broken little girl. [This feels like a really harsh way to put it.] She has nothing and no one and has decided to cling to the only form of love she knows by whatever drastic means she can.
I. . . refuse to be viewed as capable of being injured by someone so pathetic. [Unless, of course, that description also describes her exactly.]